I'm smiling again

Yes, a lot of people that have contributed to make me get out of my funk of the tail end of last year but I think all the changes I'm facing have helped the most. I find myself smiling, even just a little bit very often again, like I did a few years ago. I feel like I'm back and it feels good.

I can't sleep either my place is too quiet or the numerous thoughts in my mind are too loud. Deep down I know this is what I this is what I need to do. I will miss living so close to all my best friends but I do intend to visit as much as possible.

My life feels right at the moment. For a while now I felt lost and overwhelmed but now it feels like I'm finally taking charge of it again.

As it's been my latest thing: this is my current state of mind through music. I'm slowly freeing myself from the blues and hopelessness. Now I'm optimistic for what my future may hold, I see endless possibilities which is one reason why I'm having trouble sleeping, I'm so excited about my life's potential and opportunities.

Happy Valentine's Day

My valentine is my lovely plant...I bought chocolates and made a card sending my plants name (yes I named my plant, I sing to him too). This day has been pretty nice and productive. It's happening...I knew it was but this morning whilst packing my boxsets it sunk in...I'm moving. It's all bittersweet of me. I have loved my apartment and the newfound freedom it represented but it's time for me to grow up and this move maybe the the best thing for me right now. Okay I've "played" on the computer long enough, time to do the thing I've been putting off...pack my shoes! I have quite a few and I always see more I like but I've been good, I've only been dream shoe-shopping lately. Until next time cyber-world.

Packing.

I'm in the process of packing and preparing to move. The job for me isn't in Lewisville so it's with a heavy heart that I've said my good byes, I'm packing up and moving on. I have loved my apartment and the freedom of living on my own, I hope my next venture is what I need to move forward, I feel like I haven't progressed in months and the lack of progress was actually crushing my spirit. Now my future may be fuzzy at the moment but at least something is happening. I'll miss my friends very much and I hope my future will be filled with more memories with them and lead me back here soon. I'm really torn about leaving, missing people I care about is the main reason I don't want to move on the other hand I need to take care of myself and I haven't been able to here.

This is feels like me right now.

Snow Days.

The longest I have been trapped in my apartment. Since I have a crappy job, it hasn't been canceled one day despite the fact that the roads are covered in at least 3 inches of snow (and it's snowing right now.) plus there's an inch below that. I called in yesterday, but don't want to call in today too, but I may have too.

I love living where it actually snows, I really love snow...not being trapped in for days but it's amazing how with just a little white layer the world looks shiny and new, like a blank canvas.

On a positive note, with this beautiful weather I've found a love song that fits the weather and me perfectly, I've listened to a lot of snow-themed songs this week, being trapped indoors isn't going to get me down!

Here's the song: Snowfall By:Ingrid Michaelson